Someoone please listen to my story and tell me what should i do? shes my first love and i miss her?

i met this girl about a month ago online and we got right into talking and we really had alot to talk about. we started getting more into talking and we started going on the interent and skyping and oovooing. we talked to eachother on oovoo for at least 3 hours just talking about truth or dare questions to pass the time and get to know eachother. so i then suggested hey i think we should meet? so we met at the mall for the first time for about 15 mins and laughed and had fun. i said we should do this again so the week later we went to the movies. that day we went and walked the city going store to store and just talking about good things.we had alot to relate to. so after at the end of the day we made out and two days later we hung out agian and did the same thing. about the week after we sorta got into a agrument because i told her do you want to go out she said maybe and i was confused so i let it be. also i forget we texted everyday 24/7 from morning to night. so i realized she was acting different so i asked her she said nothing but i did know something. then after the argument started she said she didnt like me and we can be friends so i agreed. a few days later i started texting her again but we stoping video chatting. we actually talked more sexual even though we said we are only friends. another day came and she was in a bad mood and got mad but later she apologized like nothing happend. we starting talking more too. by the way we havent hung out in a month also. so later on we still just talk and talk about the good times we had and how we should continue them. we end up getting into a bigger argument because one weekend she was supposed to come over and i got really mad cause we didnt see eachother in so long so i yelled at her. i asked her its her decsion on what she wants to do so i gave her time. 3 days later she says she apologizes and i apologize too. by now nothing more sexual. she starts talking to another guy and my jealousy come out. this guy is younger and more immature and hes not in shape so i get mad. i hold in the anger too. she realized i was jealous and i agreed to cause we never lied too eachother. so i saw this as a race sorta. so i was doing things to make her happy as much as i can. about days ago she gets in a mood that is very depressing so i ask her whats wrong and she says she misses her ex which was her first love. i talk to her n the phone that night trying to comfort her and tell her the best advice. at the same time i still care for her and i show it too. she tells me she only talks to 3 guys me,the other kid, and some other kid from church. i tell her sweet dreams and that night i had an idea. i woke up in the morning and wrote a poem and it came from the heart basically asking her out again. i say its a secret and she loves it. but i asked what about the question and she didnt think i was serious. so she declines and i feel really bad and i start to be a drama queen and very dramtic and i dont know why. i tell her i love her. she says shes still in love with her ex which doesnt care about her anymore. now the night before i told her my defination of love which is when two people will do anything for the other person. and it takes time to say the word love cause its a powerful word. so i throw all my cards on the table and i tell her everthing how i feel. now she gets very mad and says why do guys like me after 2 weeks. i tld her i didnt want there to be another guy so i like sorta begged her and i look back at my mistakes and i look pathetic. after i got her very mad i sorta felt that i dont need her and i thought that i should move on. so i ask her whats her case on things she says she doesnt even want to be friends anymore. i said fine what you want. but i didnt drop it her i went on facebook and every status i commited on i commented on again saying **** it in caps. i dont know why i did that too. that night i started to move on and meet more people but it wasnt the same and i felt bad what i did. so that night i had a dream about her and i woke up and texted her asking her whats her decsion. she says she doesnt want to be friends so i respect her descion and think im moving on. i tell her a goodbye note saying i hope you find someone or go back to your ex, and saying if you ever need someone to talk to and listen to her problems i will be there. she doesnt respond but she removes me as a friend on facebook. so i get mad and i request the other guy she was talking to and i tell him to watch out she still loves her ex. now this guys is actually pretty cool i think so he agrees and tells me that he loves her and i tell him you what happend to me and hes amazed. that last few days though im not over her i have very bad depression and think about her 24/7. i want to be friends again thats all though. we were so close. all i want to be is friends and help her. my cousin said to wait a month yeah. the story is alot more emotional if you see it though than now.